Catch a CLUE!

Dear Family Members,

I am DROWNING here....I NEED your help....do I have to spell it out for you...do I have to beg you?????

I am so unequivocally pissy today and I had to vent.

I have to keep my kids on lock down.  Keep them silent, all day long while my hardworking husband tries to get some sleep before he goes to his job, where he works 14 hours and then has to deal with an hour and a half traffic to and from.  Not too mention trying to keep a yappy mother fucking dog quiet when everyone from the UPS man and people walking down the street set off his high pitch bark.  5 out of 7 days a week I have to be on constant alert to keep all noise to a minimum.....I have a 2 and a 4 year old...how the fuck am I supposed to stifle their noise?!?!?!

On top of that, I have to try to complete daily chores and a mound of work that keeps me chained to a computer.....for my father in law who is my boss.  And then they fucking invite my sis in law over and not even bother to mention they weren't busy this weekend and could...I don't know...give me a fucking break and take my kids...so I can do their motherfucking work they want turned around fast!!!  I am so pissed I am at the point of tears.  Sure they will be grandparents when its convenient...and when it fits their schedule.....but what about when they are actually needed....how about when they see me struggling...no...they are fucking clueless!!  My MIL was in my house...saw what I have to deal with...and said nothing!  I guess when you have a husband that works from home...has his own business, makes his own hours, doesn't have to commute, takes weekends off, closes shop at 4 in the afternoon....then you don't have a clue what it is like to be a Mom of 3....who feels like a single parent....when she cancelled on my scheduled over a month in advance day out with my husband because she had to pack for a Trip....5 days from then....priorities I guess...  When you schedule your grand kids to come out...but only take 2 out of the 3...what the fuck is that!?

And my own parents work constantly....so I know they can't help me....and the lovely sis in law who lives just down the street...clueless too.....how about offering to take my kids to Grandma's and Grandpa's....after I spent all day yesterday telling you how swamped I was...how I told you my Cupcake was depressed...how I told you how difficult this whole change of job and schedule has affected all of us.  Nope.  Clueless.

I can handle a lot....I can handle a ton of stress...but I am at a breaking point...I feel helpless...I feel isolated...and I feel alone....I feel on edge...

All of this...and I don't want to burden Cupcake with any of it...because he is under enough stress as it is...providing for us...working his ass off for us...

This is the reality of my situation...I am on my own...